Yep, that’s right, I was shocked when I saw that second little pink line appear on the pregnancy test.
Well, I was convinced that my husband and I would have difficulties conceiving due to his history with cancer. As my doctor put it, “It may make things harder, but we’ll cross that bridge when we get there.”
So far, we fortunately haven’t had to cross that bridge, and for that I am so thankful.
At the same time, because I was prepared to struggle with infertility, I was completely unprepared for the life change of being pregnant.
Everyone talks about the physical changes of pregnancy, but not many people dive into the identity change that happens, the struggle of letting go of your pretty independent life, and the guilt that is associated with feeling those feelings.
It’s a vulnerable and honest conversation that was necessary for me to have, and as I spoke with more baby mammas, it is a common experience. Your world is no longer about you, and it never will be again, and I think we owe it to ourselves and our babies to process that reality so as to have a completely open heart to accept the new life that is waiting – both that of our child and our own as mothers.
My hope is that this podcast will create a community to have those honest conversations and walk together on the journey of motherhood.